i bring this up because i know i mentioned my depressive moments and times of mild eating disorder but i feel it might help to settle a couple of things.
the type of dyslexia i have is summed up here:
"Abnormal primitive and postural reflexes were found to be a significant underlying factor in this sample. The Asymmetrical Tonic Neck (ATNR) and Tonic Labyrinthine (TLR) reflexes were present in 100% of the sample. Both of these reflexes have a direct affect upon the functioning of the vestibular system (balance mechanism) and its connections to the centres which control eye movements. Other reflexes found to be significant were: The Symmetrical Tonic Neck Reflex, the Spinal Galant reflex, Palmar, Plantar and Rooting reflexes. Postural reflexes were also found to be under-developed.
*53% showed some signs of cerebellar involvement and 85% had difficulty with at least one of the tests for dysdiadochokinesia indicating poorly developed bilateral integration.*92% of the sample demonstrated difficulties with oculo-motor skills, of which:*83% had difficulty with visual tracking;*59% had difficulty with near-point convergence (necessary to fuse the two separate images seen by each eye to send a single unified image to the brain);*42% had difficulty with visual discrimination;*77% showed evidence of stimulus bound effect*98% had difficulty with hand-eye co-ordination."
as well as this the experts who saw me at an early age told my parent and i that it was often paired with "shades of other things" I've never known fully which of those percentages above i fit it, but i do know that OCD is one of the aforementioned shades. luckily it isn't crippling luckily it has actually become part of my coping mechanism. i have processes and routines which i have to stick to in my head i have to wright something at 11am, i have to have lunch between 12 and 1.
i have to count the steps i take as i walk up stairs i have to have the same cup for my tea, if i don't it doesn't feel right.
but,
this rigid routine, it means my writing gets done it means I'm forced to improve my co-ordination. it means i am constantly occupied on something other than the things that could trip me up.
it also means i was able to write an entire book in the space of a month in November. it wasn't perfect but it was a book. i have now been editing it and it is now almost at a publishable state.
i doubt i could have done it, do it. if i didn't have the compulsion to workaround my dyslexia and dyspraxia my 'TLR' if i didn't have shades of other things i would be dull i would be normal, its often the deficiencies we fight that form us, make us better people. not the strengths we boast about.
